I know I've not been too great of late at getting on with my life. I can barely see past the next hour let alone the next day. I fear a lot and it's harder to see the world around me. Now the time has come to step back and take a look at what is happening, and change the way I cause concern and worry the friends around me. it's natural to mourn but I risk becoming totally destroyed. Now is the time to fill that void.